justing thinking about you...

i've been thinking about you a lot lately.

I keeping imagining how wonderful it will be to feel your arms around me. I've never liked sleeping alone, but I know that it's something I will do until we meet.

I do worry about how you'll initially react when you find out about my past. It won't be easy to hide that I'm an adoption advocate. I guess you'll know me because I'll be the crazy girl who blurts out that she placed her baby for adoption... on the first date.

I guess you'll know me because.. well, you won't mind. You'll love me because of the difficult things in my life that have defined me. You'll love my little boy, and his family, as I do. You'll love them because I love them. You won't just think it's "okay" that I had a baby... you'll think I'm strong and amazing for making such a difficult, heart-breaking decision. I deserve you...

And you deserve me. I will know who you are... and I will love you unconditionally for eternity.

Don't give up on me. I'm still here. Just waiting on you.